Hello all! I just checked my blog and noticed I haven’t written in 2015. Oops, time really flies. This entry comes from a house I’m renting with my boys Mike Katz, Jesse Yaginuma, and Adam Geyer in Las Vegas. This marks the tenth consecutive summer I’ve spent in the desert playing the World Series of Poker (WSOP). I usually report here for around seven weeks and play 65+ hour weeks of tournament poker. We are just getting underway.
The summer is always magical in the sense that I get to spend it competing in something that I love to do. The World Series of Poker is an experience. People come from all over the world and from all walks of life to play in tournaments and cash games. There is action around the clock. In addition I get to hang out with an amazing group of friends during my downtime. I have countless memories from summers in Vegas with friends: watching NBA Finals, going to the movies, dinners, nightclubs, being poolside, gym trips, bowling, and just hanging around the house laughing until early hours of the morning.
Something I love about the Series so much is that I can completely dive into my poker tournament experiences and be present everyday. I’ve played several hundred live poker tournaments over the course of the last ten years now, so it is an environment in which I’m very comfortable. No tournament is ever the same and I play with different players everyday. There are endless social dynamics to be observed. I feel I’ve gotten a great education on people given I’m exposed to so many different types at the table. Every human emotion can be witnessed at the poker table. When a poker player sits at the table he or she is not only risking money. One’s ego is ever-present and at risk of being bruised. I’m always interested by what it takes for mine to rear its ugly head. And I’m fascinated to watch how it plays out in others at the table.
Earlier tonight I cashed in the largest poker tournament of all-time in terms of entries. I finished 1428th out of the 22000+ entries in a tournament billed as “Colossus”. I will be playing 30+ more tournaments before I depart Las Vegas in mid-July.
I’ve mentioned before about how much time I devote to personal development. I’ve been increasingly taking steps to become more present and to get out of my head. I guess we all spend time lost in thought? I’ve found that true happiness for me just means being in whatever it is I’m doing. I struggled in the past with vulnerability as I inexplicably cared too much what other people thought. Perhaps that is what caused much of my mental fog. I’ve increasingly allowed myself to be vulnerable with family and friends and in my poker career and feel it has been a remarkable success. I’ve entered a cool phase in which I’m just going to be me as I pursue the art of not giving a fuck.
My 30th birthday is next week. I look back on my twenties and smile. I visited 30+ countries and have memories that will never leave me. I’ve been running a business all the while and have found security mentally, financially, emotionally and spiritually. I’ve been surrounded by the most beautiful, loving, supportive family and awesome friends. It’s been a really fun ride, and I’m ready to see what the next decade holds.
The truth is I have no idea what the next decade will hold. I’m coming out of a yearlong committed relationship with a girl named Justine. I travel so much that our relationship involved us seeing each other in different places worldwide, hanging for a weekend or a week or more, and then having to be separate for a month or more. By no means was it conventional. She’s such a special girl, and I’m really glad we had the opportunity to learn and grow from each other.
I’m sure many of you can identify with the pain and uncertainty immediately following a breakup. I dealt but was able to reasonably quickly get through thanks to healthy living and surrounding myself with family and friends.
Female intimacy is of course something that I want in my life, though I’m a little unsure in what capacity. I am learning that connectedness is so important in my personal happiness. I’m going to continue to be me and live an honest life. I am confident things will fall into place that way. Las Vegas in the summer is an okay place to start.
I expect I'll spend time this fall attempting to transition from playing poker full-time. The game will always be a part of my life, but I'm looking for a break from the constant travel. Also as Zen as I think I am when it comes to the handling the emotional swings of the game, I'm still not. I'm excited for the opportunity to do some different things. I'm open to hearing about any cool opportunities that you guys are getting into. I bring passion and hard work into everything with which I'm involved.
Hello everyone! Thanks for checking in. This blog entry is being typed from an apartment I'm renting in Prague, Czech Republic. Each of the past four Decembers I've set up shop with friends for 2-3 weeks in this magical Eastern European city to play European Poker Tour and World Poker Tour events. It will have been a 19 night stay when I leave here on Monday morning.
In addition to the high value poker tournaments I've competed in, there is also a perfectly timed music festival called 'Magnetic Fest' that I've attended with friends here each of the last three years when our work concludes. The event was last night, and it was spectacular. There is nothing quite like getting lost dancing to music, reflecting on life, and thinking where I want to go, and what I want to do. I always experience some self-transcendence in times like these. All I can say is get out and attend a festival and watch yourself grow. I had the opportunity to hang with some really amazing people during my time here in Prague.
I find the Czech community so fascinating. Eye contact is all but forbidden when walking the streets of Prague. The majority of locals wear all black or grey clothing and do their very best to blend in. Everyone is free to do his or her own thing without being judged. There is something that I love so much about that. Personally, I have spent way too much of my twenties worried about what other people think. There are times when I am crippled in my development because I'm so in my head about how I'm perceived. The more meditating I do results in me coming to true grips with who I am and my deepest feelings about things. I am a very harsh critic of myself, and as a result I've had some down times over the last few months when I don't get the desired result out of my time. The more consciousness I bring to my daily activities means I'm more aware of my shortcomings. I play high stakes poker tournaments as my main source of income, and as much as I tell myself my self-worth is not derived from the results in these tournaments, I am still at times affected. It is not easy to at times shovel off six-figures in buy-ins consecutively on one's own dime. It makes it that much more kick ass though if you can keep your composure. The tournament binks feel THAT good.
A major point of development for me will be when I can totally accept that I'm a human being and will make mistakes. We all do right? All one should do is learn from his or her experiences and move on. He or she should not dwell on them. I like to think I'm overall a pretty good person. I am now aware that it is unrealistic to think that we humans can always be naturally high. There will be down times. The key to increasing my happiness I've found (but often not exemplified) is spending those down hours productively and healthily.
I last posted in August when my buddies Jesse, Paul and I summitted the world's largest freestanding mountain, Mount Kilimanjaro in Tanzania. That was one of the highlights of my life. You can check that post here: http://shannonshorr.com/index.php/blog/38-mount-kilimanjaro-the-battle-and-experience.
Since, I have had some very out-of-this-world times. My friends and I partied for the amazing Michael Katz and Kara Motz wedding in Idaho. I had the best son and mom trip with a jam-packed 11 days in London playing tournaments and seeing all the major sites and sampling all the pubs' beer. Additionally I got to spend a little time in Birmingham catching up with my dad, mom, sisters, two angels of nieces and hometown friends. I attended the Iron Bowl and watched my football team Alabama Crimson Tide defeat our rival Auburn Tigers. I played some major poker tournaments and hung out with friends in Jacksonville, Florida and Montreal, Canada. While in Jacksonville I had the incredible opportunity to play golf at TPC Sawgrass thanks to the kind folks at BestBet poker room. Through most of these experiences I was in a very awesome state of mind. There are so many days through which I felt like I was walking around meditating. Those euphoric moments are the ones for which I strive most. The moments when no thoughts fill my head. The moments where I only experience sensations. Peak experiences, as they are. I have for the most part done a decent job keeping up a healthy mind and body, which I think is essential if I expect these moments to be consistent.
Throughout the latter half of 2014 I've spent a lot of time with my girlfriend Justine. She is an inspiration to me, and I love her. Justine is on a totally different level in the sense that she truly gets life. Kindness makes the world go round. Anyone who has met her would agree with that statement. She brings happiness to me every day that I get to spend with her. I'm really glad that we both swiped right on Tinder when I was doing some work in New Jersey. Awesome, right?
Prior to meeting Justine I'd been behind the idea and practice of polyamory for several years. I felt restricted by the idea of monogamy in the sense that I felt it wouldn't allow me to connect deeply with other females. If I was in a committed relationship I felt I would be shut off from the ability to grow through interactions with half of the world's inhabitants. Additionally my nonstop traveling lifestyle while in my twenties has lended to me having a very free spirit when it comes to things like sex. Digging deeper and looking back though it was never really about the sex. It was much more about the idea that the sex could take place with a chosen girl, that she was attainable. It is possible to connect on a deep level and not have sex in the same way it's possible to do anything to which you set your mind. I am in no way saying that either practice is better. Each person must choose for himself or herself. One thing I have found is that every relationship, no matter what kind, is made easier with honesty. If someone cannot accept you for who you are than they do not deserve your time. Be you.
I'll spend Christmas with family and New Year's Eve in Key West with Justine. From there we'll have the rare opportunity to travel overall north from the US to the Bahamas for the annual Pokerstars Caribbean Adventure event at Atlantis Resort, back to the Keys for a few days, and then later to Jersey for a World Poker Tour event. I'll finish off the month at my lifelong friend Ryan's bachelor party as I visit Asheville, North Carolina for the first time. It should be a pretty insane month. I hope to do some writing again soon. As I type this I feel liberated and on a step in the right direction in my quest to become more self-assertive.
Hey friends! At 6:34 a.m. local time Friday I summited the world's largest free-standing mountain, Mount Kilimanjaro with my buddies Jesse and Paul Yaginuma! I consider it one of my biggest personal achievements and got so much out of the journey. The idea was proposed by Jesse and Paul over a year ago. I initially laughed it off thinking it was an unattainable goal. I'm really, really, really glad I looked further into it. A big thank you to the Yaginumas for being such cool fucking guys with ambition and a strong desire to live their lives to the fullest. This reiterates to me just how essential it is that we all keep an openmind about everything. Opening one's mind isn't a process that happens overnight. It's a matter of being exposed to different people, things and places. I'll take this platform, however small it is, to try to express that through this documentation of my Kilimanjaro experience:
Hey guys. Thanks for checking out this entry. I trust that you're all out there doing what you love and living life to the fullest. This blog entry comes on the heels of a summer spent in Las Vegas playing poker tournaments at the World Series of Poker. This marks the 9th consecutive summer I've competed in the Series. From a financial perspective, things went poorly. I am reasonably happy with the effort and focus that I brought each day which is most important to me when it comes to playing tournaments. I have written about the variance of tournament poker in past blogs, so I won't bore you guys with any of that. I will say that the business is as competitive as ever, so there is no time to make excuses. I need to constantly be working on my game if I want to compete at the highest level.
Hey everyone! Big thanks to any of you who peek in for this entry. I sit here somewhat stunned at the frequency at which I used to blog. Now I consider it a huge accomplishment if I can get a blog off quarterly. I have such a passion for writing, but I continue to find it difficult to blog. I have a newfound sense of awareness which causes me to second-guess the idea of being too vulnerable publicly. That said, I'm just going to start typing and we'll see how this turns out.